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In the land of flowers

Although I haven’t been posting very many photographs, I’ve still been taking them as avidly as ever.

I am so thrilled to be living in Humboldt County. Money may be tight, my future may fill me with worries–but all I’ve got to do is take a walk and look around myself, and my heart becomes light.

The natural beauty here is astounding. I had expected the towering redwoods and the rocky coastline, but nobody prepared me for the FLOWERS.

The flowers bloom YEAR-ROUND. There are flowering trees, bushes, branches, beds EVERYWHERE. My nose is constantly pressed into petals; I talk to the blossoms sweetly and pick them up off the ground to cup in my palms and carry home. “Communing with flowers” is my preferred personal method of connecting with nature. The variety and abundance of flowers here means I do this on a daily basis.

In addition to the flowers, I also commune with the humans here, around whom I’ve cultivated a sweet little life. Since moving to Arcata in January, I’ve found myself surrounded by a ton of like-minded people. We take care of each other, play music together, and teach each other things. I love our lazy days and our adventures, and I try to capture them with my camera as much as possible.

I’ve been shooting fiercely since my brother sent me 10 rolls of Kodak Ultramax 400 for my birthday (although I also found an unshot roll of Agfa Vista 400 in an old purse, SCOOOREE). I’ve already blown through more than half those rolls.

I’ve been developing them in my bathtub here. After so many years developing film on my own, I can quickly identify a method for a makeshift darkroom anyplace and go about my splashy business without a hitch. I’ve even gotten to demonstrate my process to others!

I’m honestly behind on sharing photos, though. I’ve already processed, scanned, and edited several rolls, but haven’t gotten around to posting or sharing them.

Part of the delay is that I’d really love to DO SOMETHING with my photography, but I don’t know what. Something professional, something bigger than myself. OPEN TO SUGGESTIONS, friends.

For now, my film photos are a labor of my own love, my own personal diary. Making them makes me happy, and I guess that’s really what’s most important.

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Forward/Backward

It’s been a really weird month, and I only have two rolls of film to show for it.

As I mentioned before, working three jobs really wore me down. I’ve been doing it since August, and I love being busy. But combined with all the other things going on in my life, I was really feeling like I was just being dragged around by my neck from one obligation to another. I actually didn’t have a day off for over a month.

This town always drags me down, too. Something had to give at some point.

But, I did quit my job as a manager at a grocery store. I put in my four weeks’ notice at the end of October, and finished up right before Thanksgiving. I really feel a sense of relief, and now I have a much more open schedule to dedicate more time to my other two jobs, particularly my newspaper assignments.

I spent a stupid amount of time being laid up in the middle of the month–I had wisdom tooth surgery, and then I was sick the next week. I don’t normally like stopping my forward momentum, but it was necessary.

I fell very unexpectedly in love towards the beginning of the month. Outside of all the crazy things happening in my life, it’s so nice to have this very, very good thing happening. It makes me excited for the future, even though I’m also terrified of my future right now.

With all the things I’m trying to keep in order, my anxiety’s been resurfacing. I’m facing a lot of old struggles that I thought I was past, and I’m not being very nice to myself. I always take on too much, but I’m trying to do better. It’s just disappointing to feel like I’m moving backward in regard to my personal progress.

My productivity has suffered from my schedule. And when I run back and forth from one mundane thing to another, or lie on my couch for days, there really isn’t a lot of photography happening. Which is why it’s been over month for me to shoot and process just two rolls of film.

I usually prefer not to develop a single roll of film, since I have a tank that can hold two spools of 35mm film. Since it takes long enough to get all the chemistry to the correct temperature, it just makes way more sense for me to do them both at the same time.

I haven’t had any problems at all processing color film. So far I’ve done six rolls with these chemicals, so I’ve already more than gotten my money’s worth out of them.

I was worried about the chemicals this time, because I didn’t use them for a month and have stored them on my enclosed back porch, which isn’t AS cold as being outside, but is still cold enough that we use it as a makeshift refrigerator in the winter.

The developer is looking a little brown, but apart from that, there was no noticeable difference in the quality of the photos.

I’m going to keep using these chemicals until I notice any sort of degradation of the image–partly because I’m cheap, partly because I want to avoid mixing a new batch for as long as possible, and partly because I’m really curious to see how long they can realistically last.

Actually, I love everything about processing film. To me, the hassle is not a hassle at all–it’s a really gratifying process. I understand that digital is convenient and all, but it’s just not the same. It doesn’t have the same heart.

Film is half science, half magic, to me. Right now, my shots are sort of a cobbled-together record of my life, but what I really want to do is shoot purposeful, planned film shots, in which the medium itself is part of the expression.

All I want for Christmas is a bunch of different types of film, maybe some more chemicals. I’d love to lock myself in a darkroom for a week and make good use of my enlargers and the piles of negatives I have from the past five years.

SADLY, life doesn’t let me do the things I want. So for now, enjoy these random shots from the past month or so. The earlier ones were shot on Kodak Ultramax 400, while the later ones are Ultramax 800–nothing exotic, but I still love these films.

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